Sunday, March 1, 2015

Getting back to a true triskele mindset

2014 brought about a bit of unraveling of what a triskele life should be in my opinion. The harmony between mind, body, and soul got lost along the way. Part of my goal for 2015 was to try and refocus. Find that harmony again.

One of the big areas that took a hit last year was my spiritual life. I lost the joy and passion of pretty much all religious practices. Especially wanting to go to church. When January came I decided to forget the past. To wash away past thoughts, and start with a clean slate. I decided I would start attending CBC again and if I found it wasn't what I needed, that I would look for another church. I was hesitant at the start of the year, but then found my stride. Found enjoyment in the songs. Found comfort in the words. Found the love that comes with a church family.

So far I've only missed 2 Sundays. One was due to just being overwhelmingly exhausted from work and other was today because services were cancelled from inclement weather. I've also started doing daily devotions. The Portals of Prayer that I secretly thought were pointless for most of my life and never gave a second glance at, I've now found an appreciation of. It reminds me of the different times of the church year a bit as well which is something I don't want to forget.

I'm still absolutely miserable at praying, and honestly don't feel as though I have the same relationship with God I once had. But it's improving. I'm improving.